Maybe memory is like this:
Every second that passes lays down a clear sheet one can see right through. It does not obstruct one's view back into the past to what happened minutes ago. But with time there are so many layers. And looking through the thousands of layers of our history it grows cloudier and cloudier. Soon only the brightest, sharpest, and most well-defined moments of our lives are at all visible or distinct as we peer down among the endless, obscuring lamination.
History slowly makes us blind.
My dear friend Grape sent me a picture of a long ago old friend, Larry Davidson. Larry Davidson had a one man show that Grape went to see. Grape told me nice things about the show, measured things, but very positive.
I didn't really recognize the skinny, funny kid I knew as a 14-year-old in this lumpy picture of a modern day Larry Davidson.
Or I sort of did?
Though the picture was perfectly clear, it was all so blurry, and cloudy, and fogged with time.
I was good friends with Larry Davidson from maybe 1976 to 1980. He was the funniest kid I knew in Middle School and High School. He once went to school dressed as Jesus, carrying a cross with him.
Jesus is always funny. Have I told you the Goldstein's Nails joke?
Maybe another time then.
I am now going to tell you all I remember, all I can see down there, of Larry Davidson. It will take less time than my introduction. Underneath this pittance of murky memory I have a feeling. Strange, vague, affectionate, dry, just beyond my reach, a feeling for and about Larry Davidson, buried under the lost shapes of history, invisible to the eye.
I can't tell you that feeling. I don't know how.
So I just have this impossibly small, nearly meaningless list of... things about Larry Davidson. Some of them might not even be accurate. But here they are.
1. Larry's dad was a doctor.
2. Larry had two younger sisters.
3. Larry's house backed out onto the upper fields of our High School.
4. Larry was the first person to tell me about Star Wars, saying it was this amazing movie that people waited in line for hours to watch over and over. He may have watched it over and over.
5. Larry was the first person I knew who had a computer, and his was the first computer I ever played on. We played a space conquering game where when you attacked a planet the computer could take hours, even days to calculate the battle. While it did this the computer couldn't be used.
6. Larry was friends with Matt Behrens, but I never understood how much he was friends with Matt Behrens.
7. Larry's birthday may have been in late August.
And that is everything I can tell you about Larry Davidson.
It is not much.
But it is more than he will tell you about me in his one-man show.
So there's that.